There’s purpose behind every obstacle. This is something I heard God say to me clear as day in the recent months. For the past couple months I have been glued to my bed. Partially because I was physically out of commission but mostly because I was also spiritually under attack. It’s funny how we hear so often that when we plan God laughs, but when life actually takes a turn in a different direction we begin to question God. Unfortunately, I am guilty as charged when it comes to making plans and wanting to stick to my own script. This past June Shawn and I saw God answering all of our prayers and then some, but we were also surprised with an even bigger blessing that was not a part of our plan. Shawn and I will be welcoming our first bundle of joy next year. Although now I am absolutely stoked and looking forward to having a little one to love on, raise and dedicate to God, this wasn’t my first reaction to my positive pregnancy stick. Initially I was scared, confused and absolutely frustrated things didn’t go exactly how we had planned.
I realize now that if I wasn’t so stuck on my own plans I could’ve saved myself so much stress and heartache in the recent months. I see now that I wasn’t truly trusting God and I was leaning on my own understanding. To my simple mind, all the plans that Shawn and I were counting on would simply be wiped away with the birth of a child. I was simply putting God in a box and not understanding that this child is one of the biggest possible blessings He could give us in addition to the rest of our heart’s desires. I didn’t understand that His plans are bigger than my own, and He saw fit to not fulfill my heart’s desires but to also entrust me with a little one to bring along with for the ride.
This experience has taught me just how merciful and great God is. Despite my moping and complaining, God continued to open doors and pour more blessings unto us that sets us up perfectly to prepare for this next step. It’s amazing how He still continued to demonstrate the same grace and mercy He showed me when I was diligently seeking and trusting Him when I was doubting Him. Over the past year, Shawn and I have been working on taking our faith to the next level. It’s funny because we both admit that while we’re quick to claim how much we trust God, we’re also quick to question his voice and question His word versus what we physically see around us. I’m thankful though for a husband that called us both out on it earlier this year and has been guiding us to walk more in truly trusting and reacting quickly to God’s voice.
So I’m officially excited to announce that in March 2018 we will welcome this little nugget into the world! My heart is absolutely full because I know that this little blessing is part of a bigger plan than I could ever think of myself.
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” Isaiah 55:8-9
xoxo
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